( she has lots of those - lovely memories. some of them she can even think of without wanting to break something.
she misses him so fiercely, and it's so much less complicated than how badly she sometimes wants her mother. and how foolish, to be this old, to have spent this many years running to catch up, and when finally she discovers that ayse had been wrong all along--
she wishes she were here, to turn around and say of course i always knew, benevenuta without turning a hair, and to tell her that she'd been unplugged for many years, obviously, and it had been a program in her place, and see these lines in her face, now she will say mother and no one will think it's strange, and she can show her how to do everything-- )
In France.
( if it's abrupt, so was the first message. )
In what is called France, there. It was - quiet.
( she doesn't sound french - she sounds russian - and stolsbord is not a french name. but there are stranger things in the many false worlds of the matrix than the things in anna's explanations that don't entirely jive. )
voice.
she misses him so fiercely, and it's so much less complicated than how badly she sometimes wants her mother. and how foolish, to be this old, to have spent this many years running to catch up, and when finally she discovers that ayse had been wrong all along--
she wishes she were here, to turn around and say of course i always knew, benevenuta without turning a hair, and to tell her that she'd been unplugged for many years, obviously, and it had been a program in her place, and see these lines in her face, now she will say mother and no one will think it's strange, and she can show her how to do everything-- )
In France.
( if it's abrupt, so was the first message. )
In what is called France, there. It was - quiet.
( she doesn't sound french - she sounds russian - and stolsbord is not a french name. but there are stranger things in the many false worlds of the matrix than the things in anna's explanations that don't entirely jive. )